Update

I finally got 2 flights in this week for the first time in I don't know how long. Was out of town for a week last week and had a string of bad wind in the afternoon. I flew Monday... and did ok, but had a couple of not-so-hot landings. I was pretty discouraged. I flew yesterday and had 8 in a row that were perfectly safe and acceptable.. that's a very good sign. I just need to demonstrate that consistency before I can solo and move on. God knows I have likely made a lifetime of crappy landings already, so maybe I am over the hump. I need to evaluate the finances after I solo. If the cross country work is as challenging as the pre-solo work, I may be in trouble. For now though, feeling good. I am glad the CFI told me at the outset that this would be hard. If he had told me it would be easy, I would have quit 2 months ago.